I just got lost in Pinterest last night. It happens fairly often. I’m an extremely visual person, so the site makes my brain practically explode in glitter and rainbows.
But, it goes deeper than a visual level. I look at my boards – at what I pin – and I see this beautiful life that I dream of. Of outfits that make me smile (and the banishment of ever walking into my closet and thinking “ugh, I have nothing to in here that looks like how I want to feel right now”). Pictures of a family where I’ve captured their happiness in spectacular light. Ohmygosh, and the house. That ridiculous dream house where every single thing has an aesthetically pleasing home (instead of being shoved in a corner underneath the bathroom sink).
For a long time, I’ve thought of Pinterest as a virtual pinboard of what I want to have, and last night, a slow awareness finally clicked into place. I realized that it’s so much more about the life I want to have.
I know, that probably sounds crazy. They sound like the same thing.
But, they are most definitely not.
Yes, I want to have a perfectly crafted wardrobe, family photo album, and house filled with DIYs that actually turned out the way you wanted them to. That’s surface level though.
What I really want is to feel the way those photos make me feel and live a life that matches the way I imagine those scenes taking place in real time.
I want to go for a walk underneath leaves that are every imaginable shade of yellow, orange, and red. I want to stop and pause to stare in wonder and to breath that beautiful season in.
I want to twist in silence into a glorious yoga pose and to feel whole. Without a to do list running through my head or the worry of if my abs are the proper amount of sore so that I feel like this work out was worthwhile.
I want to walk into my closet and put on an outfit that makes me feel radiant. An outfit that makes me smile all day because I feel how I look on the outside matches how I feel on the inside.
I want to cook a meal that I take time and effort to prepare, and I want to sit down to eat that beautifully, carefully prepared meal slowly and intentionally. Without rushing through to whatever comes next on the agenda.
I want to decorate a home that melds simplicity, beauty, and plain old comfy. Where we only keep what we need. Wouldn’t that be exquisite? To have all the things that you really need – the things that bring you beauty or function – and giving up that physical and mental space that the other things swallow up?
I want to grow old with The Mister and show up every day of every year deliberately appreciating the life that we are crafting together. And dancing for absolutely no reason along the way.
I want to take those words of wisdom to heart and to feel like I am an active participant in my life every single day. Like I am making a difference in my own world and the world of others.
I want that feeling of sepia tones. Which is kind of hard to put your finger on, but I think is some blend of wonder, nostalgia, and stillness. I mean, some feeling draws us into photos like this.
I want to feel like that.
I think it’s pretty incredible that by visually capturing the way I want to feel in my life that Pinterest has created a visual look book of how I want to lead my life. It’s a reminder to slow down and savor life. To keep getting rid of the things in my life that don’t add value (they’re just things after all). To appreciate my family with hugs, kisses, and plenty of quality time. And to show up with joy and a moment of a pause to appreciate the life I am living. At this very moment.